Do you know the feeling of something you know but you are not sure about it? I visited anniversary ball last week. It was ball of my former high school which I left six years ago. I know it's not so long time but some of my friends left a year or two before me. I had opportunity to meet them there. Some of them were same as they were in the time of their leaving exam. Others changed. They could look same but their lives were different. As if they had lived on the edge for some time and now, they had calmed down.
I don't know what I could think about it. It was nice to see them but on the other hand, some old woudns were opened and it isn't good thing when you think that you were able to turn a new leaf.
úterý, března 27, 2007
čtvrtek, února 22, 2007
My friends part four
Hi guys,
I have a new pic for you. I was going through some photos of my friends and came across one of them who is pretty interesting. Here is it.
úterý, února 06, 2007
God's Will
God’s Will
Author: Michelcz
Disclaimer: CSI doesn’t belong to me. It belongs to Anthony Zuicker. Same it is with song God’s Will which is Martina McBride.
Spoiler: season seven, episodes Fannysmackin’ and Post Mortem
Character: Greg Sanders
Summary: Who is Greg Sanders inside?
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves
It hid the braces on his legs at first
Greg Sanders, yeah that’s my name. But now I want to be someone with no name. Someone who could live without any shadows behind his back. From the moment when the whole situation happened I haven’t managed to sleep. If I try to close my eyes and relax, I can see it all again. It’ s going in the rounds and sometimes it’ s without end. I tried to block these memories but I wasn’t able do it. It’ s nightmare which is trying to shadow me.
His smile was as bright as the August sun
When he looked at me
As he struggled down the driveway
It almost made me hurt
So I’m sitting on the couch in the break room now. I can see people around me who are prepared to fuss over me, I know they’re trying to help me but I need to have some time off. OK, I know that Grissom told me that I can have leave but I was… I thought that I needed to be here. I need to find some control over this life of mine. I must find it cause someone in my life depends on it. So I’m sitting here and trying to go over memories of last seven years.
Will don't walk too good
Will don't talk too good
He won't do the things that the other kids do,
In our neighborhood
I came into this lab from New York through California where I lived successfully for twenty-three years. I was able to juggle my athletic carrier and scientist at high school. Yeah, I know my mother hated it cause she thought, even today it’ s same, that I could have some serious injury and die. She comes from the old Norwegian family. She believes in the ability of her mother’s psychic power. His gram had an premonition about his death during football match. So I wasn’t allowed to play football like others boys, even though he didn’t feel like an outsider. I managed to be a captain of chess team and be famous among peers of mine. They knew I wouldn’t let them down when they needed something. I liked to be in the center of their attention. I tried to hide my frustration with my parents. I tried to be different from them. I figured out that I can only escape if I go to study at university somewhere out of San Gabriel. I found a way. I had left for Stanford University.
I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin'
Lost and lookin' all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right
He was a boy without a father
And his mother's miracle
I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin'
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until
I knew God's Will
Stanford. It was the ticket toward his freedom. He knew it at the moment he discovered it. He was over the moon about his acceptance. He had been thinking all summer before the time of his departure had come. He had been thinking about a challenge which was in front of him. He had suffered through a high school. He was so lost during the time in San Gabriel.
I came at university, and I found that it was the best thing in my life, or I was thinking it at that moment. It was before I discovered someone who had changed all my life. I managed to enroll into chemistry classes. I have been dreaming about it from the moment I was seven years old. I was happy little boy who had received the best present ever. My grandpa Olaf gave me chemistry kit. He knew that I will be happy although he was in big trouble with my overprotective mom.
At the first moment when I entered the lecture hall and I saw her, I knew that I had found my fate. I had been feeling a connection with her on the first sight. I knew she saw me when I entered. She looked at me however she didn’t show any interest in her face. Although she had looked be out of my category, I decided that I will capture her heart and never let her go. I needed to show her that she is my soul mate, my fate, destiny, simply everything important for me.
I was excited when I was paired with her for lessons and I found her name. Name which had sounded like a crystal diamond, Kaetlyn, Kaetlyn Jennifer Waterfall.
Will's mom had to work two jobs
We'd watch him when she had to work late
And we'd all laugh like I hadn't laughed
Since I don't know when
It took months to convince her that she could believe me. She could have a fate in me and my charming person. Everyone had thought that I was and am a guy of one night stands. They were able to see this side. The side which has been showing how funny, charming and came-day-go-day person, I am. They couldn’t see through that mask but Kaetlyn managed it. She had found I hate to be known as a shag-boy. She had found my own face and she started to like it. I felt that we started slowly falling in love with each other. It was the best time of my life.
We were together for four years and all the time we were making plans for our future. We had been dreaming about a family of our own. We knew how we will have named our children long time before it happened. Yeah, it had happened in the end but we had to go through a lot of obstacles in our lives.
The worst one of those obstacles was Kaetlyn’s family. She had been a heir to one rich old family. They didn’t believe to me. They didn’t believe that I ain’t a male version of gold digger person. Even more they hater were so intense, I don’t know how it all happened but they were successful in their campaign against me. We started to be at each other’s throats almost everyday. We were fighting for the rest of our time together before we had split up. What took years to be built, was ruined during eight short weeks. She had broken my heart. I was hurt so much that I needed to be on other side of the States. I couldn’t bear be near to her and watched her how she is going to find somebody else and maybe marry him.
I needed to run away. After the graduation I caught the first plane and flew in New York where I found a sanctuary here. It was also place where I was found by ‘brains huntsmen’. I received an offer to work for the second best criminal lab in the America. After almost year in New York I moved away in Las Vegas where I finally found a peace for my soul. At least I thought it for some time.
'Hey Jude' was his favorite song
At dinner he'd ask to pray
And then he'd pray for everybody in the world but him
When I came in Las Vegas lab I knew that it won‘t be easy. Although I was full of enthusiasm and eager to start live for new challenge. I started out as the resident lab rat, sitting quietly in a lab of mine working away on the loads of evidence and DNA the CSIs brought in, usually responsible for making discoveries about pieces of evidence that would crack a case open. I loved every minute of it but I started to desire more and more to go in the field. I wanted to be an investigator and I was determined to work it out.
I had been full of energy which was a remainder of his former relationship with Kaetlyn. She was only one who could have been possible to calm him down . I loved her for it and I love her also in this moment. She was the best thing which could happen in my life. No wait, I‘ve got a second best thing in my life now. I‘ve got something which had made me smile every morning. I mean ‘my mornings‘. It‘s something special. It was the most precious gift in my life which I could received from someone who was special to me. Someone who loved me with all heart. Someone who I loved to the end of the life. Someone who will live in my heart for the rest of my life.
I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin'
Lost and lookin' all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right
He was a boy without a father
And his mother's miracle
I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin'
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until
I knew God's Will
It was almost four years from the moment he had split up with Kaetlyn. He had been thinking that he‘d move on. But suddenly one day he had a mysterious visitor in the lab. Kaetlyn came back into his life and had found out how much it was a lie. Despite the long time and long distance which was between them he could say that all his love for this one woman was back in the second when she had entered his life again.
His heart was full of life which had been forbidden to him for a long time. He could feel butterflies in his stomach even though he would tell anyone else that‘s only girlish feeling. He had been fighting with it all the time he was in Las Vegas. He had become a good time boy one more time as he had been at the university. He went out a lot and had lots of one night-stands with girls without faces and names.
One day, a receptionist Judy came into his lab with a note, he‘d a visitor in a lounge of the lab. After a while, when he showed there, he could see who was his visitor. Kaetlyn Jennifer Waterfall. He had frozen for several minutes. He wasn‘t able to speak, listen or react on everything what had been happening around him suddenly.
When he got over the shock he seens her. He was able to look up at her. He had tried to find right words. He couldn’t say anything coherent to her. He stood here and he had stared at her. She had been so calm under his piercing gaze. After a several minutes he told her he will end his shift in two hours. He gave her address of CSI’s favorite diner and said that he is going to be there after the shift. He turned and went back in his lab with these words.
Before they moved to California
His mother said, 'They didn't think he'd live'
And she said each day that I have him
Well it's just another gift
How he had been sitting in a break room and he had been poring in the memories from his past. Despite all the bad things in his life he couldn’t be more happy now. He had felt that he hadn’t a right to be. He was and will be for the rest of his life. He was lost in his past one more time.
When he came in the diner after the shift and he had found out that she had been waiting for him here, he was happy. As he could say she had been there for two hours. He slowly walked to the booth where she was waiting for him. After their greetings he asked her directly why she came in Las Vegas and how she managed to find him out here. He had been trying to leave no tracks all the time. He thought he was successful.
She told him she was lost without him but she had been stubborn and couldn’t admit it herself. She didn’t want to show any signs of the weakness. She believed that her family was right about him whole time. She believed in it even though she was almost crazy without his presence in her life. She tried to date others men. Men who were allowed by her family. She did it until the time she found out that her family lied her. Until she had discovered that they were the reason why they split up. So she hired the best private detective to find him and she was here.
He was happy but also sad at the same time. He had been able to be without her for last four years. He felt her vital presence in his life from the second when she stand before him in a lounge of the lab. He couldn’t think about the moment when she’ll decide to leave him and she’ll go back to her family. He had been afraid of the moment like this one all time. Suddenly he was pulling into it. He couldn’t fight against it but also he couldn’t bear again if she leave him one more time.
However she felt it, and said it. She said that she left her family and wants to be with him. It’s on him what the rules will be in their relationship. She will accept everything.
And I never got to tell her
That the boy showed me the truth
In crayon red, on notebook paper, he'd written
'Me and God love you'
He said a marriage. So they got married same day and were blissfully happy. Greg didn’t said nothing about it in the lab. Only one person knew about it and it was Grissom cause he needed to be inform about changes in his life. He had to give another kin into his personal folder which was in Grissom’s hand. He knew it but he never said anything about it. He was an enigma for Greg even more after this.
He didn’t think that he can’t be more happy in his life that he already was. One day he found that it isn’t true. He had been promoted as a CSI level one. He was excited cause everything came after the case when he had thought he absolutely made a mess in it. His highest level of happiness had been fulfilled when he had came home with news of the day. He received something better than was his promotion. He had received the greatest gift in the world. His wife was pregnant. His wife was pregnant.
They lived day by day during the times of Kaetlyn’s pregnancy. They loved talking to their unborn child. They didn’t want to know what it will be. It was meant to be surprise for them. Everything went great during the seven months of pregnancy. This pregnancy how her doctor said, was almost textbook one. The word almost was something what had worried him but it was only he. Kaetlyn was happy and nothing couldn’t change it.
One day when he had been on his way back to the lab from the worst crime scene he had ever seen, he received a disturbing news. The Desert Palms hospital called that his wife was brought with intense contraction and there wasn’t enough time to stop a labor. He needs to come in hospital as soon as it was able. He paled and started to shiver. In this moment he was glad that Catherine was the one behind a wheel. She saw his reaction to a call. She asked only where he needed to drive. When he said a word hospital, she had paled a bit too, especially when she didn’t know why he was called there. She was aware of the lack of time. So she drove towards the hospital through shortcut she knew from the times of her marriage with Eddie.
I've been searchin', prayin', wounded, jaded
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until...
Catherine was soon before the hospital. She didn’t stop car when Greg quickly opened door on the passenger side and jumped out of the car. He ran like a madman across a parking lot to the entrance of the hospital where he had disappeared. Catherine quickly parked her Denali and hurried to catch her younger co-worker but when she came in the hospital building, she had found out that it will be absolutely impossible for her: She went to ask a nurse in the admission room where she can find Greg Sanders. She had been sent on the fifth floor. She was confused. She didn’t know what to think why Greg had been called to be present in maternity ward. She had been thinking about it all way up until the moment when she stepped out of the hospital elevator and asked first nurse who she saw where she can find Greg Sanders. The nurse told her that he’s with his wife and she must wait for other information from doctor in case she’s a family.
Catherine had been waiting for two hours when her mobile phone started ringing. She had looked at the screen of the mobile phone and saw Grissom’s name.
“Cath, where are you? I’m waiting for your and Greg’s arrival in the lab. Did you find something else in a crime scene?” Grissom asked her.
“Hospital. We’re in hospital,” she answered simply.
“What? Why are you in hospital?” he started to sound alarmed.
“Greg was called by hospital….,” she had been telling him when their conversation abruptly ended. Gil Grissom hung up.
She tried to call his mobile phone back but he didn’t take his phone although he didn’t turn it off. She wanted to start it one more time when she saw how Greg emerged from the door of the room at the end of the hallway. She shut her phone and went straight to him. However she didn’t see normally cheerful smile in Greg’s face. He had been pale. His T-shirt was covered blood. He had been violently shaking and crying. She hurried to him and caught him into her embrace. She could feel how he tightly wrapped his arms around her. She held his shaking body in her arms and tried to calm him down a bit.
She didn’t know how long they had stayed in the embrace. She only knew that he had stopped sobbing. He started slowly pull away from her when she heard someone running through the hallway towards them. She had looked up and saw that the person, who had been running towards them, was Grissom. He had been breathless when he started throwing questions at Greg.
“Greg, what’s happened? I thought that it all will happen next month,” he asked Greg.
“Believe me, Grissom. I was thinking same thing but it happened now…” Greg answered.
“Greg, what happened during your wife’s labour?”
“She died. She died. My Kaetlyn is dead,” he answered weakly.
“What?” Catherine and Grissom said unison.
“My wife died after she gave birth to my son. They forgot tell her that her last blood test had some anomaly erythrocytes. They didn’t think that it’s nothing important. They murdered her.”
“Greg what we can do for you,” asked Gil.
“You both already did it. You are here with me and for me. It’s enough in this moment but I ……” he didn’t say it because someone interrupted their talk.
“Mr. Sanders, you can visit your son now. We transferred him in the nursery. I will go with you and show you a way?” a nurse told him.
“Grissom…” he said.
“Greg, go to see your son. We’ll be waiting for you,” he told him softly.
“Thank you, guys,” he said weakly and turned around to follow a nurse on their way into the nursery.
Catherine had been standing with crossed arms over her chest and looking viciously at Grissom. They didn’t talk for a moment. They had been looking at each other. In Catherine’s case she had been silently glaring at him and throwing murdering gazes at him. He had been stoically looking back at her. He was absolutely calm. Calm as if it wasn’t Grissom. She knew him for a long time and could read in his posture and eyes but everything had been screaming calm. He had been looking into her eyes. He had been watching how she had woken up from her stupor and started her little performance.
“Gilbert Grissom,” this started sounding quite bad for him, “how long have you known about it?” she asked him.
“From the beginning.”
“From the beginning. Is it all what are you going to tell me?”
“Yeah.”
“Yeah. From the beginning. Jesus, it’s so funny but you know so many words now,” she told him. “Where did you lose your textbooks words? You’re able to talk more and when you have an opportunity, you like to do it.”
“I’m answering only so much as you asked me.”
“You’re doing what. Oh, you decided to give me accurate information, aren’t you?”
“Right.”
“Bollocks. You’re avoiding my questions and me from the moment you entered hospital. Are you trying to show me a new side of Gil Grissom? Personal part of your complex personality even though you’re the one who has been telling me whole time that you don’t have one. You must be punished.”
“Catherine …” he started talking to her but he was interrupted.
“Don’t start with Catherine now. It doesn’t affect me as you could know after the last several months you’re living with me and Linds, instead of living in your sterile condo.”
They were stuck so much in their argument that didn’t see Greg who has been heading back to the place where he had left his two colleagues. He had approached them silently and watched them for a few moments. He had been surprised by the information, he heard. His two co-workers are finally together. Despite the sad situation of his life, he had to smile. He was pleased for them. They had finally found peace.
“You will sleep on the couch for next two weeks,” Cath finished her ranting.
“Cath!” was suddenly heard unison.
She didn’t react at Grissom’s voice and turned her attention to Greg.
Greg took her hand into his and said.
“Cath,” was heard his soft voice, “it isn’t his fault. I asked him to promise me that nobody will find it out. I didn’t think about it as if it was something special. I only married a woman who I met several years before I came in Las Vegas. We had some bad blood between us. Everything had suddenly been alright one day when she had come back into my life. I wanted only live it.”
“Greg, you could have said something to me,” she was telling him and gently squeezed his hand.
“Cath, I know that I could do it but I needed to have a separate life out of the lab. By the way, guys, congratulations. It was about time that you finally got together. Everyone around you could see it but not you two. You are meant to be. You are one soul, one person in two bodies. You are behaving this way all the time I know you, guys.”
“Thank you, Greg,” Grissom said who had been carefully walking to Cath and firmly wrapped arm around her waist. She didn’t protest against it how he had been afraid.
“It’s sad that in the day when you have to celebrate a birth of your son, you’re also grieving for your wife. If you will need anything, don’t hesitate to call us at any time.”
“What did you name your son, Greg?” Cath asked him only few seconds after Grissom told him those words.
“Nathaniel… Nathaniel Gilbert Sanders,” he said proudly. “Nathaniel like a present from God.”
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves
I know that I need to go home to my son. I need to give him a hug and hold him in my arms. He is everything in my life. He’s a reason why I live. Why I can breath and get up day by day.
He has three fantastic people in his life. Uncle Gil who is trying to bribe him to be an entomologist, Aunt Cath has been spoiling him from the day one she saw him in a hospital nursery and Lindsey. Lindsey is the girl who he’s going to marry one day how he told us during his birthday. He could have been only two years old but he already know what he wants in his life. He was like his mom. He had taken after her.
He is Sander.
Author: Michelcz
Disclaimer: CSI doesn’t belong to me. It belongs to Anthony Zuicker. Same it is with song God’s Will which is Martina McBride.
Spoiler: season seven, episodes Fannysmackin’ and Post Mortem
Character: Greg Sanders
Summary: Who is Greg Sanders inside?
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves
It hid the braces on his legs at first
Greg Sanders, yeah that’s my name. But now I want to be someone with no name. Someone who could live without any shadows behind his back. From the moment when the whole situation happened I haven’t managed to sleep. If I try to close my eyes and relax, I can see it all again. It’ s going in the rounds and sometimes it’ s without end. I tried to block these memories but I wasn’t able do it. It’ s nightmare which is trying to shadow me.
His smile was as bright as the August sun
When he looked at me
As he struggled down the driveway
It almost made me hurt
So I’m sitting on the couch in the break room now. I can see people around me who are prepared to fuss over me, I know they’re trying to help me but I need to have some time off. OK, I know that Grissom told me that I can have leave but I was… I thought that I needed to be here. I need to find some control over this life of mine. I must find it cause someone in my life depends on it. So I’m sitting here and trying to go over memories of last seven years.
Will don't walk too good
Will don't talk too good
He won't do the things that the other kids do,
In our neighborhood
I came into this lab from New York through California where I lived successfully for twenty-three years. I was able to juggle my athletic carrier and scientist at high school. Yeah, I know my mother hated it cause she thought, even today it’ s same, that I could have some serious injury and die. She comes from the old Norwegian family. She believes in the ability of her mother’s psychic power. His gram had an premonition about his death during football match. So I wasn’t allowed to play football like others boys, even though he didn’t feel like an outsider. I managed to be a captain of chess team and be famous among peers of mine. They knew I wouldn’t let them down when they needed something. I liked to be in the center of their attention. I tried to hide my frustration with my parents. I tried to be different from them. I figured out that I can only escape if I go to study at university somewhere out of San Gabriel. I found a way. I had left for Stanford University.
I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin'
Lost and lookin' all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right
He was a boy without a father
And his mother's miracle
I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin'
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until
I knew God's Will
Stanford. It was the ticket toward his freedom. He knew it at the moment he discovered it. He was over the moon about his acceptance. He had been thinking all summer before the time of his departure had come. He had been thinking about a challenge which was in front of him. He had suffered through a high school. He was so lost during the time in San Gabriel.
I came at university, and I found that it was the best thing in my life, or I was thinking it at that moment. It was before I discovered someone who had changed all my life. I managed to enroll into chemistry classes. I have been dreaming about it from the moment I was seven years old. I was happy little boy who had received the best present ever. My grandpa Olaf gave me chemistry kit. He knew that I will be happy although he was in big trouble with my overprotective mom.
At the first moment when I entered the lecture hall and I saw her, I knew that I had found my fate. I had been feeling a connection with her on the first sight. I knew she saw me when I entered. She looked at me however she didn’t show any interest in her face. Although she had looked be out of my category, I decided that I will capture her heart and never let her go. I needed to show her that she is my soul mate, my fate, destiny, simply everything important for me.
I was excited when I was paired with her for lessons and I found her name. Name which had sounded like a crystal diamond, Kaetlyn, Kaetlyn Jennifer Waterfall.
Will's mom had to work two jobs
We'd watch him when she had to work late
And we'd all laugh like I hadn't laughed
Since I don't know when
It took months to convince her that she could believe me. She could have a fate in me and my charming person. Everyone had thought that I was and am a guy of one night stands. They were able to see this side. The side which has been showing how funny, charming and came-day-go-day person, I am. They couldn’t see through that mask but Kaetlyn managed it. She had found I hate to be known as a shag-boy. She had found my own face and she started to like it. I felt that we started slowly falling in love with each other. It was the best time of my life.
We were together for four years and all the time we were making plans for our future. We had been dreaming about a family of our own. We knew how we will have named our children long time before it happened. Yeah, it had happened in the end but we had to go through a lot of obstacles in our lives.
The worst one of those obstacles was Kaetlyn’s family. She had been a heir to one rich old family. They didn’t believe to me. They didn’t believe that I ain’t a male version of gold digger person. Even more they hater were so intense, I don’t know how it all happened but they were successful in their campaign against me. We started to be at each other’s throats almost everyday. We were fighting for the rest of our time together before we had split up. What took years to be built, was ruined during eight short weeks. She had broken my heart. I was hurt so much that I needed to be on other side of the States. I couldn’t bear be near to her and watched her how she is going to find somebody else and maybe marry him.
I needed to run away. After the graduation I caught the first plane and flew in New York where I found a sanctuary here. It was also place where I was found by ‘brains huntsmen’. I received an offer to work for the second best criminal lab in the America. After almost year in New York I moved away in Las Vegas where I finally found a peace for my soul. At least I thought it for some time.
'Hey Jude' was his favorite song
At dinner he'd ask to pray
And then he'd pray for everybody in the world but him
When I came in Las Vegas lab I knew that it won‘t be easy. Although I was full of enthusiasm and eager to start live for new challenge. I started out as the resident lab rat, sitting quietly in a lab of mine working away on the loads of evidence and DNA the CSIs brought in, usually responsible for making discoveries about pieces of evidence that would crack a case open. I loved every minute of it but I started to desire more and more to go in the field. I wanted to be an investigator and I was determined to work it out.
I had been full of energy which was a remainder of his former relationship with Kaetlyn. She was only one who could have been possible to calm him down . I loved her for it and I love her also in this moment. She was the best thing which could happen in my life. No wait, I‘ve got a second best thing in my life now. I‘ve got something which had made me smile every morning. I mean ‘my mornings‘. It‘s something special. It was the most precious gift in my life which I could received from someone who was special to me. Someone who loved me with all heart. Someone who I loved to the end of the life. Someone who will live in my heart for the rest of my life.
I've been searchin', wonderin', thinkin'
Lost and lookin' all my life
I've been wounded, jaded, loved and hated
I've wrestled wrong and right
He was a boy without a father
And his mother's miracle
I've been readin', writin', prayin', fightin'
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until
I knew God's Will
It was almost four years from the moment he had split up with Kaetlyn. He had been thinking that he‘d move on. But suddenly one day he had a mysterious visitor in the lab. Kaetlyn came back into his life and had found out how much it was a lie. Despite the long time and long distance which was between them he could say that all his love for this one woman was back in the second when she had entered his life again.
His heart was full of life which had been forbidden to him for a long time. He could feel butterflies in his stomach even though he would tell anyone else that‘s only girlish feeling. He had been fighting with it all the time he was in Las Vegas. He had become a good time boy one more time as he had been at the university. He went out a lot and had lots of one night-stands with girls without faces and names.
One day, a receptionist Judy came into his lab with a note, he‘d a visitor in a lounge of the lab. After a while, when he showed there, he could see who was his visitor. Kaetlyn Jennifer Waterfall. He had frozen for several minutes. He wasn‘t able to speak, listen or react on everything what had been happening around him suddenly.
When he got over the shock he seens her. He was able to look up at her. He had tried to find right words. He couldn’t say anything coherent to her. He stood here and he had stared at her. She had been so calm under his piercing gaze. After a several minutes he told her he will end his shift in two hours. He gave her address of CSI’s favorite diner and said that he is going to be there after the shift. He turned and went back in his lab with these words.
Before they moved to California
His mother said, 'They didn't think he'd live'
And she said each day that I have him
Well it's just another gift
How he had been sitting in a break room and he had been poring in the memories from his past. Despite all the bad things in his life he couldn’t be more happy now. He had felt that he hadn’t a right to be. He was and will be for the rest of his life. He was lost in his past one more time.
When he came in the diner after the shift and he had found out that she had been waiting for him here, he was happy. As he could say she had been there for two hours. He slowly walked to the booth where she was waiting for him. After their greetings he asked her directly why she came in Las Vegas and how she managed to find him out here. He had been trying to leave no tracks all the time. He thought he was successful.
She told him she was lost without him but she had been stubborn and couldn’t admit it herself. She didn’t want to show any signs of the weakness. She believed that her family was right about him whole time. She believed in it even though she was almost crazy without his presence in her life. She tried to date others men. Men who were allowed by her family. She did it until the time she found out that her family lied her. Until she had discovered that they were the reason why they split up. So she hired the best private detective to find him and she was here.
He was happy but also sad at the same time. He had been able to be without her for last four years. He felt her vital presence in his life from the second when she stand before him in a lounge of the lab. He couldn’t think about the moment when she’ll decide to leave him and she’ll go back to her family. He had been afraid of the moment like this one all time. Suddenly he was pulling into it. He couldn’t fight against it but also he couldn’t bear again if she leave him one more time.
However she felt it, and said it. She said that she left her family and wants to be with him. It’s on him what the rules will be in their relationship. She will accept everything.
And I never got to tell her
That the boy showed me the truth
In crayon red, on notebook paper, he'd written
'Me and God love you'
He said a marriage. So they got married same day and were blissfully happy. Greg didn’t said nothing about it in the lab. Only one person knew about it and it was Grissom cause he needed to be inform about changes in his life. He had to give another kin into his personal folder which was in Grissom’s hand. He knew it but he never said anything about it. He was an enigma for Greg even more after this.
He didn’t think that he can’t be more happy in his life that he already was. One day he found that it isn’t true. He had been promoted as a CSI level one. He was excited cause everything came after the case when he had thought he absolutely made a mess in it. His highest level of happiness had been fulfilled when he had came home with news of the day. He received something better than was his promotion. He had received the greatest gift in the world. His wife was pregnant. His wife was pregnant.
They lived day by day during the times of Kaetlyn’s pregnancy. They loved talking to their unborn child. They didn’t want to know what it will be. It was meant to be surprise for them. Everything went great during the seven months of pregnancy. This pregnancy how her doctor said, was almost textbook one. The word almost was something what had worried him but it was only he. Kaetlyn was happy and nothing couldn’t change it.
One day when he had been on his way back to the lab from the worst crime scene he had ever seen, he received a disturbing news. The Desert Palms hospital called that his wife was brought with intense contraction and there wasn’t enough time to stop a labor. He needs to come in hospital as soon as it was able. He paled and started to shiver. In this moment he was glad that Catherine was the one behind a wheel. She saw his reaction to a call. She asked only where he needed to drive. When he said a word hospital, she had paled a bit too, especially when she didn’t know why he was called there. She was aware of the lack of time. So she drove towards the hospital through shortcut she knew from the times of her marriage with Eddie.
I've been searchin', prayin', wounded, jaded
I guess I would be still
Yeah, that was until...
Catherine was soon before the hospital. She didn’t stop car when Greg quickly opened door on the passenger side and jumped out of the car. He ran like a madman across a parking lot to the entrance of the hospital where he had disappeared. Catherine quickly parked her Denali and hurried to catch her younger co-worker but when she came in the hospital building, she had found out that it will be absolutely impossible for her: She went to ask a nurse in the admission room where she can find Greg Sanders. She had been sent on the fifth floor. She was confused. She didn’t know what to think why Greg had been called to be present in maternity ward. She had been thinking about it all way up until the moment when she stepped out of the hospital elevator and asked first nurse who she saw where she can find Greg Sanders. The nurse told her that he’s with his wife and she must wait for other information from doctor in case she’s a family.
Catherine had been waiting for two hours when her mobile phone started ringing. She had looked at the screen of the mobile phone and saw Grissom’s name.
“Cath, where are you? I’m waiting for your and Greg’s arrival in the lab. Did you find something else in a crime scene?” Grissom asked her.
“Hospital. We’re in hospital,” she answered simply.
“What? Why are you in hospital?” he started to sound alarmed.
“Greg was called by hospital….,” she had been telling him when their conversation abruptly ended. Gil Grissom hung up.
She tried to call his mobile phone back but he didn’t take his phone although he didn’t turn it off. She wanted to start it one more time when she saw how Greg emerged from the door of the room at the end of the hallway. She shut her phone and went straight to him. However she didn’t see normally cheerful smile in Greg’s face. He had been pale. His T-shirt was covered blood. He had been violently shaking and crying. She hurried to him and caught him into her embrace. She could feel how he tightly wrapped his arms around her. She held his shaking body in her arms and tried to calm him down a bit.
She didn’t know how long they had stayed in the embrace. She only knew that he had stopped sobbing. He started slowly pull away from her when she heard someone running through the hallway towards them. She had looked up and saw that the person, who had been running towards them, was Grissom. He had been breathless when he started throwing questions at Greg.
“Greg, what’s happened? I thought that it all will happen next month,” he asked Greg.
“Believe me, Grissom. I was thinking same thing but it happened now…” Greg answered.
“Greg, what happened during your wife’s labour?”
“She died. She died. My Kaetlyn is dead,” he answered weakly.
“What?” Catherine and Grissom said unison.
“My wife died after she gave birth to my son. They forgot tell her that her last blood test had some anomaly erythrocytes. They didn’t think that it’s nothing important. They murdered her.”
“Greg what we can do for you,” asked Gil.
“You both already did it. You are here with me and for me. It’s enough in this moment but I ……” he didn’t say it because someone interrupted their talk.
“Mr. Sanders, you can visit your son now. We transferred him in the nursery. I will go with you and show you a way?” a nurse told him.
“Grissom…” he said.
“Greg, go to see your son. We’ll be waiting for you,” he told him softly.
“Thank you, guys,” he said weakly and turned around to follow a nurse on their way into the nursery.
Catherine had been standing with crossed arms over her chest and looking viciously at Grissom. They didn’t talk for a moment. They had been looking at each other. In Catherine’s case she had been silently glaring at him and throwing murdering gazes at him. He had been stoically looking back at her. He was absolutely calm. Calm as if it wasn’t Grissom. She knew him for a long time and could read in his posture and eyes but everything had been screaming calm. He had been looking into her eyes. He had been watching how she had woken up from her stupor and started her little performance.
“Gilbert Grissom,” this started sounding quite bad for him, “how long have you known about it?” she asked him.
“From the beginning.”
“From the beginning. Is it all what are you going to tell me?”
“Yeah.”
“Yeah. From the beginning. Jesus, it’s so funny but you know so many words now,” she told him. “Where did you lose your textbooks words? You’re able to talk more and when you have an opportunity, you like to do it.”
“I’m answering only so much as you asked me.”
“You’re doing what. Oh, you decided to give me accurate information, aren’t you?”
“Right.”
“Bollocks. You’re avoiding my questions and me from the moment you entered hospital. Are you trying to show me a new side of Gil Grissom? Personal part of your complex personality even though you’re the one who has been telling me whole time that you don’t have one. You must be punished.”
“Catherine …” he started talking to her but he was interrupted.
“Don’t start with Catherine now. It doesn’t affect me as you could know after the last several months you’re living with me and Linds, instead of living in your sterile condo.”
They were stuck so much in their argument that didn’t see Greg who has been heading back to the place where he had left his two colleagues. He had approached them silently and watched them for a few moments. He had been surprised by the information, he heard. His two co-workers are finally together. Despite the sad situation of his life, he had to smile. He was pleased for them. They had finally found peace.
“You will sleep on the couch for next two weeks,” Cath finished her ranting.
“Cath!” was suddenly heard unison.
She didn’t react at Grissom’s voice and turned her attention to Greg.
Greg took her hand into his and said.
“Cath,” was heard his soft voice, “it isn’t his fault. I asked him to promise me that nobody will find it out. I didn’t think about it as if it was something special. I only married a woman who I met several years before I came in Las Vegas. We had some bad blood between us. Everything had suddenly been alright one day when she had come back into my life. I wanted only live it.”
“Greg, you could have said something to me,” she was telling him and gently squeezed his hand.
“Cath, I know that I could do it but I needed to have a separate life out of the lab. By the way, guys, congratulations. It was about time that you finally got together. Everyone around you could see it but not you two. You are meant to be. You are one soul, one person in two bodies. You are behaving this way all the time I know you, guys.”
“Thank you, Greg,” Grissom said who had been carefully walking to Cath and firmly wrapped arm around her waist. She didn’t protest against it how he had been afraid.
“It’s sad that in the day when you have to celebrate a birth of your son, you’re also grieving for your wife. If you will need anything, don’t hesitate to call us at any time.”
“What did you name your son, Greg?” Cath asked him only few seconds after Grissom told him those words.
“Nathaniel… Nathaniel Gilbert Sanders,” he said proudly. “Nathaniel like a present from God.”
I met God's Will on a Halloween night
He was dressed as a bag of leaves
I know that I need to go home to my son. I need to give him a hug and hold him in my arms. He is everything in my life. He’s a reason why I live. Why I can breath and get up day by day.
He has three fantastic people in his life. Uncle Gil who is trying to bribe him to be an entomologist, Aunt Cath has been spoiling him from the day one she saw him in a hospital nursery and Lindsey. Lindsey is the girl who he’s going to marry one day how he told us during his birthday. He could have been only two years old but he already know what he wants in his life. He was like his mom. He had taken after her.
He is Sander.
pátek, ledna 26, 2007
Drabble: Snow
SNOW
Author: Michelcz
Disclaimer: It doesn‘t belong to me.
Summary: Snow.
A/N: What happen when you are under influence of 30 hours permanent snowing. I wrote this drabble. Enjoy guys and leave me a feedback.
"Snow. Snow," someone has been yelling in the lab.
"Catherine?"
"It's snowing, Gil."
"I know it, Cath," he said and rolled his eyes when he had been caught by her near the enter out of the lab.
"Don't be so boring. Come on," she told him when she dragged him out of the building.
"What do you think that you are doing?"
"We're going to do snow angels.“
“Are you insane?“ he managed to tell her before she pushed him in the snow.
“Nope. I only live.“
“So why didn‘t you rather kiss me than push me into the snow?“
Author: Michelcz
Disclaimer: It doesn‘t belong to me.
Summary: Snow.
A/N: What happen when you are under influence of 30 hours permanent snowing. I wrote this drabble. Enjoy guys and leave me a feedback.
"Snow. Snow," someone has been yelling in the lab.
"Catherine?"
"It's snowing, Gil."
"I know it, Cath," he said and rolled his eyes when he had been caught by her near the enter out of the lab.
"Don't be so boring. Come on," she told him when she dragged him out of the building.
"What do you think that you are doing?"
"We're going to do snow angels.“
“Are you insane?“ he managed to tell her before she pushed him in the snow.
“Nope. I only live.“
“So why didn‘t you rather kiss me than push me into the snow?“
úterý, ledna 23, 2007
An idea for new story
Hi guys,
I had watched one of olders episodes of CSI a few days ago. After that I had had to work. I'm temporary working as a babysitter in my free time so I can earn some money. AS I said I was in work. I had a child settled down and fast asleep. I had been thinking about episode which I watched before I went to work. I watched Formalities. I like this episodes even though someone can tell you that's a bit confusing but I didn't think it.
I love the scene at the beginning of the episode with bowtie. So I'm going to write a new story about it. Maybe it will be a bit hot stuff.
I had watched one of olders episodes of CSI a few days ago. After that I had had to work. I'm temporary working as a babysitter in my free time so I can earn some money. AS I said I was in work. I had a child settled down and fast asleep. I had been thinking about episode which I watched before I went to work. I watched Formalities. I like this episodes even though someone can tell you that's a bit confusing but I didn't think it.
I love the scene at the beginning of the episode with bowtie. So I'm going to write a new story about it. Maybe it will be a bit hot stuff.
pondělí, ledna 22, 2007
Music
Another my favourite song from last year. You could heard this song in a cartoon movie Asterix and the vikings.
Celine Dion - Tous Les Secrets
Oh oh oh Ton regard comme une caresse
Je me sens si bien
Puis tes yeux s'envolent et me laissent
Et je n'ai plus rien
Qu'un reflet de toi
Tu es loin déja ah ah
Je ne connais pas tous les secrets de ton coeur
Mais je viens quand meme
Tu vis quelque part entre douleur et douceur
Mais je viens quand meme
Je te suis quand meme
Tu m'entoures comme un drap de soie
Je me sens si bien
Puis je perds l'écrin de tes bras
Et je n'ai plus rien
Tu t'en vas la-bas
Tu es loin de moi
Je ne connais pas tous les secrets de ton coeur
Mais je viens quand meme
Tu vis quelque part entre douleur et douceur
Mais je viens quand meme
Je te suis quand meme
Quand meme...
Je ne connais pas tous les secrets de ton coeur
Mais je viens quand meme
Tu vis quelque part entre douleur et douceur
Mais je viens quand meme
Je te suis quand meme.
Translation:
Oh oh oh Your look like a caress
I feel so good
Then your eyes fly away and leave me
And I have nothing
But a reflection of you
You're already far away ah ah
I don't know all the secrets of your heart
But I come anyway
You live somewhere between pain and sweetness
But I come anyway
I follow you anyway...
You surround me like a silken blanket
I feel so good
Then I loose the jewel-case made by your arms
And I have nothing anymore
You leave over there
You're far away from me
I don't know all the secrets of your heart
But I come anyway
You live somewhere between pain and sweetness
But I come anyway I follow you anyway...
Anyway...
I don't know all the secrets of your heart
But I come anyway
You live somewhere between pain and sweetness
But I come anyway
I follow you anyway...
Celine Dion - Tous Les Secrets
Oh oh oh Ton regard comme une caresse
Je me sens si bien
Puis tes yeux s'envolent et me laissent
Et je n'ai plus rien
Qu'un reflet de toi
Tu es loin déja ah ah
Je ne connais pas tous les secrets de ton coeur
Mais je viens quand meme
Tu vis quelque part entre douleur et douceur
Mais je viens quand meme
Je te suis quand meme
Tu m'entoures comme un drap de soie
Je me sens si bien
Puis je perds l'écrin de tes bras
Et je n'ai plus rien
Tu t'en vas la-bas
Tu es loin de moi
Je ne connais pas tous les secrets de ton coeur
Mais je viens quand meme
Tu vis quelque part entre douleur et douceur
Mais je viens quand meme
Je te suis quand meme
Quand meme...
Je ne connais pas tous les secrets de ton coeur
Mais je viens quand meme
Tu vis quelque part entre douleur et douceur
Mais je viens quand meme
Je te suis quand meme.
Translation:
Oh oh oh Your look like a caress
I feel so good
Then your eyes fly away and leave me
And I have nothing
But a reflection of you
You're already far away ah ah
I don't know all the secrets of your heart
But I come anyway
You live somewhere between pain and sweetness
But I come anyway
I follow you anyway...
You surround me like a silken blanket
I feel so good
Then I loose the jewel-case made by your arms
And I have nothing anymore
You leave over there
You're far away from me
I don't know all the secrets of your heart
But I come anyway
You live somewhere between pain and sweetness
But I come anyway I follow you anyway...
Anyway...
I don't know all the secrets of your heart
But I come anyway
You live somewhere between pain and sweetness
But I come anyway
I follow you anyway...
neděle, ledna 21, 2007
Confession
Hi guys,
I had watched one latin souap opera two years ago. I know that it's rubbish but I didn't watch it for a fun but for a music.
I discovered some good spanish songs. Last night I had been hunting for lyrics to my downloaded songs and I finally found the one which I had been looking for a long time. So I decided to post it here. In my personal space. Music is big part of me and because this blog is about me and my fanfictions, I think that it's fitting here.
Poco a poco
Te daré lo que tu buscas
Si es que a ti lo que te gusta
Es que yo le venda
Sueños a tu corazón
Me darás lo que yo busco
Y entre la alegría y el susto
Me dirás que tengo la razón
Te daré noches enteras
Encontrando la manera
De sacar de tus ojos
Mi próxima canción
Me darás la primavera
De tu amor y tus caderas
En las sombras de una habitación
Seremos par de gatos
Que van por la oscuridad
Que no quiebran ni un plato
Pero incendian la ciudad
Dando de que hablar
Dando ejemplo de cómo se debe amar
Poco a poco
Se me caen los besos en tu piel
Mientras que mis manos
Quieren conocerte bien
Y en tu pecho
Un temblor delata tu intención
De caer en la tentación
Te daré entre otras cosas
Aventuras peligrosas
En la que te arriesgues
A vivir siendo feliz
Me darás entre otras cosas
Aventuras deliciosas
En las que me arriesgare
A morir
Seguiremos siendo
Quienes dicen la verdad
Que vamos descubriéndonos
Con naturalidad
Dando de que hablar
dando ejemplo de cómo se debe amar
Poco a poco
Se me caen los besos en tu piel
Mientras que mis manos
Quieren conocerte bien
Y en tu pecho
Un temblor delata tu intención
De caer en la tentación
Poco poco a poco va quedándome en tus besos
Poco a poco me voy metiendo en tu piel
Poco poco a poco me vas diciendo te quiero
Te quiero si te quiero no
Me pongo loco
Poco poco a poco te vuelves dueños de sus pensamientos
Ay laraylalalaraycierran en la admiracion por ti a cada momentosi señor
poco poco...
I had watched one latin souap opera two years ago. I know that it's rubbish but I didn't watch it for a fun but for a music.
I discovered some good spanish songs. Last night I had been hunting for lyrics to my downloaded songs and I finally found the one which I had been looking for a long time. So I decided to post it here. In my personal space. Music is big part of me and because this blog is about me and my fanfictions, I think that it's fitting here.
Poco a poco
Te daré lo que tu buscas
Si es que a ti lo que te gusta
Es que yo le venda
Sueños a tu corazón
Me darás lo que yo busco
Y entre la alegría y el susto
Me dirás que tengo la razón
Te daré noches enteras
Encontrando la manera
De sacar de tus ojos
Mi próxima canción
Me darás la primavera
De tu amor y tus caderas
En las sombras de una habitación
Seremos par de gatos
Que van por la oscuridad
Que no quiebran ni un plato
Pero incendian la ciudad
Dando de que hablar
Dando ejemplo de cómo se debe amar
Poco a poco
Se me caen los besos en tu piel
Mientras que mis manos
Quieren conocerte bien
Y en tu pecho
Un temblor delata tu intención
De caer en la tentación
Te daré entre otras cosas
Aventuras peligrosas
En la que te arriesgues
A vivir siendo feliz
Me darás entre otras cosas
Aventuras deliciosas
En las que me arriesgare
A morir
Seguiremos siendo
Quienes dicen la verdad
Que vamos descubriéndonos
Con naturalidad
Dando de que hablar
dando ejemplo de cómo se debe amar
Poco a poco
Se me caen los besos en tu piel
Mientras que mis manos
Quieren conocerte bien
Y en tu pecho
Un temblor delata tu intención
De caer en la tentación
Poco poco a poco va quedándome en tus besos
Poco a poco me voy metiendo en tu piel
Poco poco a poco me vas diciendo te quiero
Te quiero si te quiero no
Me pongo loco
Poco poco a poco te vuelves dueños de sus pensamientos
Ay laraylalalaraycierran en la admiracion por ti a cada momentosi señor
poco poco...
sobota, ledna 20, 2007
čtvrtek, ledna 18, 2007
Photo story of my life continues
Hi guys,
yeah, this one picture is also from my life. I took that picture last summer during the waiting for the begining of the theater. Yeah, I'm not crazy. This theater is in Cesky Krumlov, Czech Republic. It was built in the nature near small chateau. The auditorium is spinning stage.
But the play wasn't in the day when I took this picture. It's before the beginnig of the storm.
středa, ledna 17, 2007
úterý, ledna 16, 2007
Photo story of my life continues
Hi guys,
I have been showing you some phots for several weeks. These photos are part of me and my life. I would like to show you more from my life. I decided to show you my little big brother who can be older than me but he's a child in his heart.
I love him dearly and I think that he has every right to be published on my blog.
pondělí, ledna 15, 2007
neděle, ledna 14, 2007
White Sand
White Sand
Author: Michelcz
Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me.
Rating : K
Spoiler: Cross Jurisdiction, Weeping Willows
Character: Catherine Willows, Horatio Caine
Summary: Wedding day. Sequel to Stand by me.
Crossover between CSI: Crime Scene Investigation and CSI: Miami
Horatio Caine had been standing on the back porch of his house for the two last hours. He had been looking on the ocean which had brought him his happiness. Yeah, his love didn’t come from the ocean but form the desert. More precisely from the city in the desert. They found each other by coincidence. One case, two cities, two states and two teams. These things were on the beginning of their friendship which led to the relationship at the end.
Today was his D-Day. He is getting married the most beautiful and kind woman in the world. They had been engaged for two short months but it seems like an eternity to them. His life had a deep gap for long time which suddenly had been fulfilled by her. Everything faded away after the death of his mother when he was young man. He was forced to take care of his younger brother Ray who died several years ago. He thought and will think for whole life that it was his fault even though it wasn’t true. But it was the last drop of his unfortunate life.
He had been also watching the beach which brought him woman of his dreams. The dreams which he thought that had never come true. This special woman fell into his life and with her bright light on his life way. He could see so much beauty of her in the sand which had lied on the beach. He had her every day present image before his eyes. He could describe how she was blessed with breathtaking beauty which you could see first in her strawberry blond hair and continued to her deep blue bright eyes where you could read like in the open book if you had known this woman, and finally her body. He had loved each curve of her body. She was absolutely magnificent creature. Even though she had been always told him and Lindsey repeatedly that she isn’t perfect as they thought, he had seen her this way. She was absolutely everything what he had ever hoped for.
This beach had been their silent witness of theirs first kiss, first lovemaking and today, it was time for the best thing in its life. It’ll become the witness of the moment when they’ll tell theirs vows to each other. Their love will be sealed forever. They will start walking their way through the life together.
It's always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Catherine Willows had been standing near the window which led on the ocean side of the house. She watched her fiancé and soon-to-be husband. He’d got his usual unspecific look in his face if she could guess due to his pose. She knew that he had been thinking about something important for him.
Catherine had been thinking how this everything happened. She had lived quite happily in Las Vegas almost three months ago. Yeah, quite happily is right phrase. She had been losing her best friend for sometime. The friend who had been also her love of the life. They draw too much apart. They built invisible wall between them. She didn’t know when it happened. She didn’t why it had been built. But she knew that it had torn apart her heart. She had loved him for so long time that she wasn’t able to remember when it all started. She had known one thing. He had been only man who had been with her all time and she could count on him. He never let her down until the time three months ago.
He told her many harmful things. The things that broke up everything between them. She needed to have some distance from it. She went to Ecklie and asked him for leave. She had travelled long way to find her happiness and love. She found it unexpectedly or better it found her.
She left Las Vegas and went to find her stability in Miami. She had found not only the stability but also a man who was a gentleman. Man who started to build their relationship base on the friendship. They discovered feelings for each other but they didn’t talk about it until the last evening in Miami. They confessed what they’re feeling for each other. They kissed and engaged that evening. Today was her wedding day. Today, she is going to be married to the man who loves her with equal love as she loves him. He knew that she had loved someone for long time and he knew that she still loves him but only as a friend. She also knew he will be amazing father to Lindsey.
“Mom, please, stop looking out of the window. It’s so ewwwwwwwww.” Catherine was interrupted by her daughter. “You need to wait only fifty-five minutes now. So hold on and wait patiently.”
Catherine tried to think up some meaningful answer when they both heard knock on the door.
“Come in if you aren’t Horatio Caine. If you are, keep yourself in the distance for bloody fifty-four minutes,” Linds yelled.
“Lindsey,” Catherine said warningly.
“Hey girls, and I can come inside,” somebody said low voice.
“Warrick. Uncle Warrick,” was heard in the moment when the tall black man entered the room.
“So where is a bride? Hey, it must be you, Lindsey. I’m waiting for this moment from the times when I met you as a little girl,” he teased her.
“War, forget quickly these words or you will die very painful and slow way,” Cath told him with serious face.
“Come here, beautiful!” War told Cath. “It seems that Miami agrees with you. You look absolutely stunning, Catherine.”
He watched her for few moments before he said.
“I didn’t see you so happy for few years, Cath. You found a peace in your soul and minds. It’s shame that it couldn‘t happen in Las Vegas.”
“Yeah, it definitely agrees with me. I’m working side by side with a man who loves me and I love him back. War, I can honestly tell you that I haven’t been more happy in the entire life. As you said I had been able to find a way to myself and mainly to the shine of my life, Lindsey.”
“Oh guys, stop it. You’re too gushy to my opinion.” Lindsey told them. “Mom, it will be only fifty minutes from now. So chill out.”
“You, Uncle Warrick,” she turned to a the tall man, “ you are here for her. Stop that and try to help me to keep her calm. By the way, I hope you’re prepare for your big action. You’re giving this insane woman away.”
The long fifty minutes had faded away and the moment of the day had been only few seconds apart. Catherine had never been so scared that something bad is going to stop it. She had never been in this mood before. Even before her first wedding with Eddie. It all was in a blur. It was in the delirium of the alcoholic haze. It was a huge mistake in her life but with the greatest result. Lindsey. Now, she had been standing alone in the bedroom of the man who had become her life. She was so much lost in her thoughts that she didn’t hear a knock on the door of the bedroom. She had jumped when she heard someone’s voice behind her.
“Cath?” asked Warrick. “Are you prepared to go down?”
“No, I think that I will never be prepared for this step cause I’m thinking that I’m not worth it. But it’s time to go. I want to do this and be with man I love and he loves me and everything about me,” Catherine answered him.
“OK, Catherine Willows, you need to memorise one thing. You are worth all things which are going to happen now. You are worth this man because I could see how you look when he is somewhere around you. You’re glowing.”
“I will ask you one more time, Cath,” War said firmly, “are you ready?”
“Nope.” She told him back. “But it’s time to start the show. Let’s go.”
Horatio Caine had been impatiently waiting on the beach with a priest and theirs families and friends. He had been waiting for this moment almost his whole life. He had been so much trying to find his another half. He had found her. Now he stood here and waited for her.
He had been clothed in a white shirt and white pair of trousers and barefoot. They decided together that it will be simple wedding on the beach which had become something more for them. It was their private paradise and you can wear only white in your paradise. Be clothed in white colour and be barefoot. Only one thing will be different. Lindsey will be clothed in a gown of aquamarine colour. They asked her to do it. She didn’t know why it was so important for them. This colour will become a significant colour of their family. It will seal it all. It’s a colour of their future life together.
It's always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I've never been so sure of anything in my life
Horatio’s attention had been shifted from his thoughts about his life in the moment when the first tones of the unusual wedding march started. He had turned around and caught a glimpse of a woman who was his wife-to-be.
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me
I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I'll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I'll let nothing come between us
I'll love what ever you love
The woman who just had been walking barefoot towards him through the sand on the arm of her friend who wore black long sleeves shirt and black pants. She had worn long strapless ivory gown which had been billowing around her ankles step by step.
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me
He made the sun He made the moon
to harmonise in perfect tune
One can't move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it's true
You're for me and I'm for you
Cause my world just can't be right
Without you in my life
Her eyes locked on her husband-to-be, her heart bursting with happiness. This all seemed like a dream to Catherine but it was really happening. She was going to the arms of a happy future. She had found a man who loved not only her but also her daughter.
They watched each other with silly looks in their faces. She tried to walk elegant gait but she couldn’t fight the bounce in her step. She wanted to be beside him as soon possible. She wanted to go through the ceremony soon, especially when it will be a ceremony with surprise for Lindsey. Finally, she had been in front of the man of her life. Horatio reached out and took her from Warrick who had given her away.
“Take care of her, man. She needs it even though she’s saying something else,” was all what he said to Horatio.
“I will. I will.” the man in front of him said and gently grabbed Catherine’s hand and gently squeezed it.
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
Yes, He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me
The last tones of the song faded away during the long gaze which they changed between them. They reluctantly broke the contact of theirs eyes and turned their attention to the priest who had been standing before them. Both were absolutely obvious of the people who had formed semi circle behind theirs backs and had started to watch the beginning of the ceremony.
“Brothers, sisters, family and friends, we came here today to be witnesses the union of Catherine Willows and Horatio Caine,” the priest started his speech, “two were meant to be. Two who had been searching for each other for a long time. Today we will witness the union of two parts of one soul. Two soul mates are joining into one soul. Their love is pure. It belongs only them. May God bless this marriage with His eternal presence in both of them. Now, Horatio, you can say your words to Catherine.”
Horatio turned to face to his bride and started to talk.
“I, Horatio, affirm my love to you, Catherine, as I invite you to share my life. You are the most beautiful, smart, and generous person I have ever known, and I promise always to respect you. With kindness, unselfishness and trust, I will work by your side to create a wonderful life together.“
“I take you Catherine to be my lawful wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health for as long as we both shall live.“
“And now, please, can you turn to the second woman in your life,“ the priest asked him.
“Lindsey, this part of the ceremony had been requested by your mother and me. I want to ask you one question in front of all important people in our lives. Could you do me a honour and will you become my lawful daughter? Could you take my surname as your own? I‘m not trying to take a place which had been you father. You had a father who loved you and he‘ll live in your heart and minds till you die. Everything what I need to know is only one word, yes or no, so I can sing up the adoption papers.“ Horatio was looking at young girl before him who had been bitting her bottom lip during his speech.
“Yeah, I want to be your daughter by the law. I will be honoured to have your last name. You‘re the man who had made my mother happy. Can we sing the papers now?“
“Yeah. Of course, we can do it now. Warrick, please, can you give me the papers?“
After the singing the adoption papers, Lindsey rushed in the embrace of Horatio and hugged him tightly. Catherine watched whole situation with the tears in her eyes. She saw how her groom kissed their daughter on the cheek and sent her back to her uncle Warrick.
Now, it was finally Catherine‘s turn. She looked up at the man, who had written admiration and love for her in his face, beside her and started with her vow.
“Horatio, I love you. You are my best friend. Today I give myself to you in marriage. I promise to encourage and inspire you, to laugh with you, and to comfort you in times of sorrow and struggle.“
“I promise to love you in good times and in bad, when life seems easy and when it seems hard, when our love is simple, and when it is an effort. I promise to cherish you, and to always hold you in highest regard. These things I give to you today, and all the days of our life.“
“The rings please,“ the priest turned to Warrick and Calleigh who had held rings and quickly handed them to Cath and Horatio.
“With this ring, I thee wed, and offer you my life, my fidelity, and my love,“ Horatio said and placed ring on Catherine‘s finger.
“With this ring, I thee wed, and offer you my life, my fidelity, and my love,“ Cath repeated after Horatio and slipped the ring on his finger.
“With this ring, we offer you stability, unity, family and love for the rest of your life,“ they together told Lindsey and put the ring into her right hand and closed it. They held their clasped hands for a few moments as a sing of new formed family.
“Then by the laws of God and man, I pronounce Catherine Willows and Horatio Caine, man and wife. Those whom God hath joined together, let no man put asunder.“
"It is my pleasure and privilege to introduce to you all, Horatio, Catherine and Lindsey Caine.“
After these words Lindsey stepped back from her parents to give them a privacy.
“You may kiss your bride, Horatio.“
Slowly he wrapped his arms around her waist and let his lips fall to hers. Horatio‘s lips captured Catherine‘s and held them in long passionate kiss. They reluctantly parted after a while when they heard cheering and whistling around them.
Horatio firmly wrapped his arms around both his woman and they started their walk away from the priest like a family.
Author: Michelcz
Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me.
Rating : K
Spoiler: Cross Jurisdiction, Weeping Willows
Character: Catherine Willows, Horatio Caine
Summary: Wedding day. Sequel to Stand by me.
Crossover between CSI: Crime Scene Investigation and CSI: Miami
Horatio Caine had been standing on the back porch of his house for the two last hours. He had been looking on the ocean which had brought him his happiness. Yeah, his love didn’t come from the ocean but form the desert. More precisely from the city in the desert. They found each other by coincidence. One case, two cities, two states and two teams. These things were on the beginning of their friendship which led to the relationship at the end.
Today was his D-Day. He is getting married the most beautiful and kind woman in the world. They had been engaged for two short months but it seems like an eternity to them. His life had a deep gap for long time which suddenly had been fulfilled by her. Everything faded away after the death of his mother when he was young man. He was forced to take care of his younger brother Ray who died several years ago. He thought and will think for whole life that it was his fault even though it wasn’t true. But it was the last drop of his unfortunate life.
He had been also watching the beach which brought him woman of his dreams. The dreams which he thought that had never come true. This special woman fell into his life and with her bright light on his life way. He could see so much beauty of her in the sand which had lied on the beach. He had her every day present image before his eyes. He could describe how she was blessed with breathtaking beauty which you could see first in her strawberry blond hair and continued to her deep blue bright eyes where you could read like in the open book if you had known this woman, and finally her body. He had loved each curve of her body. She was absolutely magnificent creature. Even though she had been always told him and Lindsey repeatedly that she isn’t perfect as they thought, he had seen her this way. She was absolutely everything what he had ever hoped for.
This beach had been their silent witness of theirs first kiss, first lovemaking and today, it was time for the best thing in its life. It’ll become the witness of the moment when they’ll tell theirs vows to each other. Their love will be sealed forever. They will start walking their way through the life together.
It's always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Catherine Willows had been standing near the window which led on the ocean side of the house. She watched her fiancé and soon-to-be husband. He’d got his usual unspecific look in his face if she could guess due to his pose. She knew that he had been thinking about something important for him.
Catherine had been thinking how this everything happened. She had lived quite happily in Las Vegas almost three months ago. Yeah, quite happily is right phrase. She had been losing her best friend for sometime. The friend who had been also her love of the life. They draw too much apart. They built invisible wall between them. She didn’t know when it happened. She didn’t why it had been built. But she knew that it had torn apart her heart. She had loved him for so long time that she wasn’t able to remember when it all started. She had known one thing. He had been only man who had been with her all time and she could count on him. He never let her down until the time three months ago.
He told her many harmful things. The things that broke up everything between them. She needed to have some distance from it. She went to Ecklie and asked him for leave. She had travelled long way to find her happiness and love. She found it unexpectedly or better it found her.
She left Las Vegas and went to find her stability in Miami. She had found not only the stability but also a man who was a gentleman. Man who started to build their relationship base on the friendship. They discovered feelings for each other but they didn’t talk about it until the last evening in Miami. They confessed what they’re feeling for each other. They kissed and engaged that evening. Today was her wedding day. Today, she is going to be married to the man who loves her with equal love as she loves him. He knew that she had loved someone for long time and he knew that she still loves him but only as a friend. She also knew he will be amazing father to Lindsey.
“Mom, please, stop looking out of the window. It’s so ewwwwwwwww.” Catherine was interrupted by her daughter. “You need to wait only fifty-five minutes now. So hold on and wait patiently.”
Catherine tried to think up some meaningful answer when they both heard knock on the door.
“Come in if you aren’t Horatio Caine. If you are, keep yourself in the distance for bloody fifty-four minutes,” Linds yelled.
“Lindsey,” Catherine said warningly.
“Hey girls, and I can come inside,” somebody said low voice.
“Warrick. Uncle Warrick,” was heard in the moment when the tall black man entered the room.
“So where is a bride? Hey, it must be you, Lindsey. I’m waiting for this moment from the times when I met you as a little girl,” he teased her.
“War, forget quickly these words or you will die very painful and slow way,” Cath told him with serious face.
“Come here, beautiful!” War told Cath. “It seems that Miami agrees with you. You look absolutely stunning, Catherine.”
He watched her for few moments before he said.
“I didn’t see you so happy for few years, Cath. You found a peace in your soul and minds. It’s shame that it couldn‘t happen in Las Vegas.”
“Yeah, it definitely agrees with me. I’m working side by side with a man who loves me and I love him back. War, I can honestly tell you that I haven’t been more happy in the entire life. As you said I had been able to find a way to myself and mainly to the shine of my life, Lindsey.”
“Oh guys, stop it. You’re too gushy to my opinion.” Lindsey told them. “Mom, it will be only fifty minutes from now. So chill out.”
“You, Uncle Warrick,” she turned to a the tall man, “ you are here for her. Stop that and try to help me to keep her calm. By the way, I hope you’re prepare for your big action. You’re giving this insane woman away.”
The long fifty minutes had faded away and the moment of the day had been only few seconds apart. Catherine had never been so scared that something bad is going to stop it. She had never been in this mood before. Even before her first wedding with Eddie. It all was in a blur. It was in the delirium of the alcoholic haze. It was a huge mistake in her life but with the greatest result. Lindsey. Now, she had been standing alone in the bedroom of the man who had become her life. She was so much lost in her thoughts that she didn’t hear a knock on the door of the bedroom. She had jumped when she heard someone’s voice behind her.
“Cath?” asked Warrick. “Are you prepared to go down?”
“No, I think that I will never be prepared for this step cause I’m thinking that I’m not worth it. But it’s time to go. I want to do this and be with man I love and he loves me and everything about me,” Catherine answered him.
“OK, Catherine Willows, you need to memorise one thing. You are worth all things which are going to happen now. You are worth this man because I could see how you look when he is somewhere around you. You’re glowing.”
“I will ask you one more time, Cath,” War said firmly, “are you ready?”
“Nope.” She told him back. “But it’s time to start the show. Let’s go.”
Horatio Caine had been impatiently waiting on the beach with a priest and theirs families and friends. He had been waiting for this moment almost his whole life. He had been so much trying to find his another half. He had found her. Now he stood here and waited for her.
He had been clothed in a white shirt and white pair of trousers and barefoot. They decided together that it will be simple wedding on the beach which had become something more for them. It was their private paradise and you can wear only white in your paradise. Be clothed in white colour and be barefoot. Only one thing will be different. Lindsey will be clothed in a gown of aquamarine colour. They asked her to do it. She didn’t know why it was so important for them. This colour will become a significant colour of their family. It will seal it all. It’s a colour of their future life together.
It's always been a mystery to me
How two hearts can come together
And love can last forever
But now that I have found you, I believe
That a miracle has come
When God sends the perfect one
Now gone are all my questions about why
And I've never been so sure of anything in my life
Horatio’s attention had been shifted from his thoughts about his life in the moment when the first tones of the unusual wedding march started. He had turned around and caught a glimpse of a woman who was his wife-to-be.
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me
I promise that wherever you may go
Wherever life may lead you
With all my heart I'll be there too
From this moment on I want you to know
I'll let nothing come between us
I'll love what ever you love
The woman who just had been walking barefoot towards him through the sand on the arm of her friend who wore black long sleeves shirt and black pants. She had worn long strapless ivory gown which had been billowing around her ankles step by step.
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me
He made the sun He made the moon
to harmonise in perfect tune
One can't move without the other
They just have to be together
And that is why I know it's true
You're for me and I'm for you
Cause my world just can't be right
Without you in my life
Her eyes locked on her husband-to-be, her heart bursting with happiness. This all seemed like a dream to Catherine but it was really happening. She was going to the arms of a happy future. She had found a man who loved not only her but also her daughter.
They watched each other with silly looks in their faces. She tried to walk elegant gait but she couldn’t fight the bounce in her step. She wanted to be beside him as soon possible. She wanted to go through the ceremony soon, especially when it will be a ceremony with surprise for Lindsey. Finally, she had been in front of the man of her life. Horatio reached out and took her from Warrick who had given her away.
“Take care of her, man. She needs it even though she’s saying something else,” was all what he said to Horatio.
“I will. I will.” the man in front of him said and gently grabbed Catherine’s hand and gently squeezed it.
I wonder what God was thinking
When He created you
I wonder if He knew everything I would need
Because He made all my dreams come true
He must have heard every prayer I've been praying
Yes, He knew everything I would need
When God made you
When dreams come true
When God made you
He must have been thinking about me
The last tones of the song faded away during the long gaze which they changed between them. They reluctantly broke the contact of theirs eyes and turned their attention to the priest who had been standing before them. Both were absolutely obvious of the people who had formed semi circle behind theirs backs and had started to watch the beginning of the ceremony.
“Brothers, sisters, family and friends, we came here today to be witnesses the union of Catherine Willows and Horatio Caine,” the priest started his speech, “two were meant to be. Two who had been searching for each other for a long time. Today we will witness the union of two parts of one soul. Two soul mates are joining into one soul. Their love is pure. It belongs only them. May God bless this marriage with His eternal presence in both of them. Now, Horatio, you can say your words to Catherine.”
Horatio turned to face to his bride and started to talk.
“I, Horatio, affirm my love to you, Catherine, as I invite you to share my life. You are the most beautiful, smart, and generous person I have ever known, and I promise always to respect you. With kindness, unselfishness and trust, I will work by your side to create a wonderful life together.“
“I take you Catherine to be my lawful wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health for as long as we both shall live.“
“And now, please, can you turn to the second woman in your life,“ the priest asked him.
“Lindsey, this part of the ceremony had been requested by your mother and me. I want to ask you one question in front of all important people in our lives. Could you do me a honour and will you become my lawful daughter? Could you take my surname as your own? I‘m not trying to take a place which had been you father. You had a father who loved you and he‘ll live in your heart and minds till you die. Everything what I need to know is only one word, yes or no, so I can sing up the adoption papers.“ Horatio was looking at young girl before him who had been bitting her bottom lip during his speech.
“Yeah, I want to be your daughter by the law. I will be honoured to have your last name. You‘re the man who had made my mother happy. Can we sing the papers now?“
“Yeah. Of course, we can do it now. Warrick, please, can you give me the papers?“
After the singing the adoption papers, Lindsey rushed in the embrace of Horatio and hugged him tightly. Catherine watched whole situation with the tears in her eyes. She saw how her groom kissed their daughter on the cheek and sent her back to her uncle Warrick.
Now, it was finally Catherine‘s turn. She looked up at the man, who had written admiration and love for her in his face, beside her and started with her vow.
“Horatio, I love you. You are my best friend. Today I give myself to you in marriage. I promise to encourage and inspire you, to laugh with you, and to comfort you in times of sorrow and struggle.“
“I promise to love you in good times and in bad, when life seems easy and when it seems hard, when our love is simple, and when it is an effort. I promise to cherish you, and to always hold you in highest regard. These things I give to you today, and all the days of our life.“
“The rings please,“ the priest turned to Warrick and Calleigh who had held rings and quickly handed them to Cath and Horatio.
“With this ring, I thee wed, and offer you my life, my fidelity, and my love,“ Horatio said and placed ring on Catherine‘s finger.
“With this ring, I thee wed, and offer you my life, my fidelity, and my love,“ Cath repeated after Horatio and slipped the ring on his finger.
“With this ring, we offer you stability, unity, family and love for the rest of your life,“ they together told Lindsey and put the ring into her right hand and closed it. They held their clasped hands for a few moments as a sing of new formed family.
“Then by the laws of God and man, I pronounce Catherine Willows and Horatio Caine, man and wife. Those whom God hath joined together, let no man put asunder.“
"It is my pleasure and privilege to introduce to you all, Horatio, Catherine and Lindsey Caine.“
After these words Lindsey stepped back from her parents to give them a privacy.
“You may kiss your bride, Horatio.“
Slowly he wrapped his arms around her waist and let his lips fall to hers. Horatio‘s lips captured Catherine‘s and held them in long passionate kiss. They reluctantly parted after a while when they heard cheering and whistling around them.
Horatio firmly wrapped his arms around both his woman and they started their walk away from the priest like a family.
pátek, ledna 12, 2007
čtvrtek, ledna 11, 2007
Something sentimental
Hi guys,
I just found this amazing picture. In the moment I look at it, I decided that I must have it in my blog. It's telling story about me and how I see a life. What's important in a life and how we suposse to live a proper life.
It's me and my faith in miracles for people who deserve it.
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úterý, ledna 09, 2007
pondělí, ledna 08, 2007
neděle, ledna 07, 2007
Picture part 3
My most favourite place is Bodrum, Turkey. I love this place from the first moment I arrived there for my vacation in 1997. I had been there at least five times. It's magical city full of beauty architecture and sky blue sea.
pátek, ledna 05, 2007
London Institute
Hi guys,
London Institute is language school where I have my english course. We had one great funny pre X-mas mood.
This picture had been taken only two days before Christmas.
čtvrtek, ledna 04, 2007
Picture part.2
Hi guys,
I took this picture during my vacation in Italy last summer. I would like to show you how nice place is Calabria, place where I had been for two weeks.
středa, ledna 03, 2007
pondělí, ledna 01, 2007
2007
Ahoj všichni,
tak tu máme Nový rok 2007. Do tohoto roku hodně štěstí, zdraví lásky a úspěchů.
Taky vám všem chci slíbit, že se již polepším a konečně dokončím Paprsek ve tmě.
SLIBUJI!!!!!!
Taky vám všem slibuji, že již v brzké době přivedu k životu nový projekt na poli povídek s párem HG/SS.
V pracovním názvu se to jmenuje ' Rodičem? To snad ne?!' a nastanou zde zlé, ale humorné časy pro Severuska.
tak tu máme Nový rok 2007. Do tohoto roku hodně štěstí, zdraví lásky a úspěchů.
Taky vám všem chci slíbit, že se již polepším a konečně dokončím Paprsek ve tmě.
SLIBUJI!!!!!!
Taky vám všem slibuji, že již v brzké době přivedu k životu nový projekt na poli povídek s párem HG/SS.
V pracovním názvu se to jmenuje ' Rodičem? To snad ne?!' a nastanou zde zlé, ale humorné časy pro Severuska.
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